First off, I completely understand the worrying about the future and money troubles. So freaking much. What people tell me, being inclined to worry just as you are, is to take things one step at a time. And maybe this might work for you, I'm going to give it a try: list your strengths, weaknesses, and interests and ask a Business professor to give their opinion on the field you might be good in. At that point you have a pool to look into. What was your major, by the way?

Where RP is concerned, that really does sound disheartening. For what it's worth, whenever we're both on, I'd be pleased as punch to do things with you RP-wise. I've really wanted to, but I'm never sure what a good time is and then convince myself it's pestering folks if I ask and...yeah. Similar if not the same boat.

But Ametimes are excellent times, seriously. Regardless of what games either of us are in, I like talking with you and doing fun things. And if anything that should be fun isn't, definitely examine ways it could be fun. If nothing makes it better, it's good to consider options then too.

Sorry if any of this is less coherent than it should be. Haven't slept yet but gosh I hate seeing you disheartened.